But I am tired, Ralph Waldo. I am so tired.
I know what he is challenging us to think, though. If we can see the future picture, the WHY of what we are working for, how can we be tired? We’ve made these plans and made this mark to be there in that place in our future. The hustle is worth it.
Use the hashtag, it is gonna be big.
I am actually already in bed. I moved in here almost 45 minutes ago. That’s about all I can deal with. I drank a beer and watched the premiere episode of Making It with Nick Offerman and Amy Poehler, and now I’m just done. I’m so tired.
I’ve been listening to a lot of my favorite podcast, “Don’t Keep Your Day Job,” and the basic take away from months of listening to it is: your YOUNESS is special, it is the only one like it, and there will never be another. DO YOU. BE YOU. LET IT SHINE. So many people don’t though. They live life willing to take the bare minimum of what they can get, and deserve to receive. WE ALL deserve to receive. But we stop ourselves so often from actually receiving. For me it can happen so easily in so many ways.
For example, in relationships it can be hard to receive what I want or what I deserve. It’s hard to have him tell me he loves me sometimes. It’s hard to have him tell me all the sweet, kind, sexy, flattering, special things he says about me. I look around like, “me? REALLY?”
Right now I have to admit that I have just wanted to cuddle on the couch and fall asleep on Tom while he watches his shows. I have wanted this for days, but I have not once been vulnerable enough to tell him that. How is it that I can type it here, but I can’t just tell the most important person in my life?
Honey, I want your time. I want to cuddle with you on our cozy couch and have you rub my skin while you watch your show. I want to just be in that sweet blissful place and not worry about anything else.
OK SO SCREW IT.
I’m just going to go tell him. Because I really need connection. And I need sleep. And I want him there while I do those things.