If my ME-Ness is too much for you, please step off. Read something else. We are probably not tribe members.
Go have a beautiful life. I still see you as a child of God.
An annoying one, but still a child of God.
Some people know how to separate their personal emotions from their work.
I am not one of those people. And I don’t want to be one of those people. I am someone that actively feels things and expresses things, and those are parts of my personality and character that are meaningful to me. I am not going to alter that part of myself.
For as many people out there that don’t get me, there are just as many that are cheering me on.
It’s hard, this weird public persona I’ve created. I am here, actively seeking new tribe members, and they are finding me, too. I’m also now and then reminded that not everyone gets this. Not everyone gets that I am a public school teacher and that I have a private life and I write.
I messed up last spring and wrote some pretty intensely worded blog posts about how hard my classroom was. It WAS hard. It was excruciatingly hard. I didn’t think I could keep doing it and being the best teacher for the students. But I hung in there, and I also engaged in the next 7 months of self-reflection and self-work about what that experience taught me. I am a major work in progress when it comes to self-development. I’m excessively reflective and I genuinely want to do the best I can for everyone.
So. It’s hard when there are people that don’t get it. That think what I am doing is bad, or inappropriate or oversharing. Because I want to show up for them, too. But they are not my people. They are someone else’s people. And sister, that stings to say. It stings to admit that I can’t be everything to everybody.
I’m not here to mold myself into a Jennifer package that is acceptable to all the people that meet me.
I’m just ME. Jennifer Fogerty. In my current self expression in 2018. I will change a little every year, because that’s how life works, how psychology works, and how development works. But I’m not going to have a major personality shift.
If you don’t like me. Ok. It’s alright.
Go ahead and don’t like me. It might make me mad or sad or feel attacked. But it’s your right.
What is Thankful about this? That I can learn. I can grow. I can accept that God did not put me here to be a friend to everyone, to always say things that make people happy and hearts and flowers exploding. Maybe my path is to understand balance and work with that challenge. Maybe it is to understand how to accept others-even when they don’t accept me.
And sisters and brothers–it’s all ok.